An Apology

18 Oct

If anyone is still reading this blog, I owe you an apology. I have been getting emails and comments that I have only now been able to approve. For the last 10 months I have been battling severe, debilitating clinical depression. Only now that I have gotten the proper treatment do I realize that I have had this issue since puberty.

I am doing much better and (fingers crossed) my mood seems to have evened out to the point that I am finally not staring listlessly at the wall and am actually able to function normally. Thank you modern medicine!

I’m sorry that I have neglected you all so badly and I promise that I will be much more prompt with comment approvals and replies.


Posted by on October 18, 2012 in Uncategorized


8 responses to “An Apology

  1. janny

    October 19, 2012 at 3:37 am

    Dear Maria

    I still get all the posts by email and am indeed still following this as it is the only blog it seems where people can get support with breast necrosis. Mine is now a year and a half ago, and the boob is still healing and changing,

    I have had problems replying to posts to offer women some hope about the healing and hope this one is succesful.

    As I want to say that I am thinking of you, and that you are a very brave strong woman. I fully empathise with your battle against clinical depression. Keep going Maria, and if in turn you need to talk….we’re out here to listen



    • kathleen

      November 4, 2012 at 4:53 am

      I also have necrotic pictures to show..I have been trying to contact the numbers for this site and no response..One morning I couldn’t sleep so I decided to check in to see what was available and “wow”, I said,She is back.Very sorry for your diagnosis,but you are a survivor and have a strong support group.Glad you are back.Continue your recovery.

  2. latsot

    December 1, 2012 at 12:46 pm

    Hi again Maria, nice to see you back on the scene.

    You have neglected exactly nobody. You don’t owe your readers anything at all, quite the reverse.


  3. Sharon

    December 21, 2012 at 12:39 am

    Awesome woman….you are an inspiration in posting your truth.

  4. DL

    March 5, 2013 at 6:19 pm

    Maria: I just want to thank you for your brave web site, it has helped me through 14 months of recovery from breast necrosis, which is still ongoing. I certainly can understand your depression after all you have been through, but urge you to continue the blog. It was the only site where I found support and reassurance that it will get better.

    Bless you, DL

  5. Lar Park Lincoln

    April 17, 2013 at 7:02 pm

    Hi,I haven’t posted in a zillion years because I have now finished my 12th surgery in 4 years. I finally fund a dr team of 6 surgeons who closed my chest wound in 8 hours. It has been grafted and flapped and drains are still causing me great stress.
    We didn’t ask for the job of being “strong, brave etc” but we do what we do because there is no other choice,
    I give up every day and I start again. I understand everything you have sais and send hugs hugs hugs!!
    I was in er 2x this week already and here I go to work a while ,I have one book published s and an give ya some super great tips to get your s done….I have an inspiration book also a boob book. My deals with the necrotic and the breast cancer and society crap view of it.
    I’m happy to give you a story to use. Lets visit,
    Take Care,

  6. Andrea

    May 19, 2013 at 2:18 am

    I have been inspired by all of your posts. I am 38 years old and have just gone through the worst year and a half. Like some I chose to have a breast reduction because my breasts were so large and I am also a large woman ( what society would say severely obese). Going through what I thought would be a difficult recovery given my history turned out to be a nightmare that I would wish on no one. I developed necrosis in both breasts and after a year of wound pump therapy, three to four visits from a home nurse every week, i still had two holes where my nipples used to be, yup I lost both nipples and had a second surgery after a year of this nightmare to finally close up my wounds (holes left in my breasts). Well my wounds are now closed and I am left with butchered breasts.. Reading your stories is what kept me going knowing i was not alone. I cry every day still but try to take it day by day,step by step. I would be interested in telling my story in hopes it helps someone else.


  7. Kris

    August 4, 2013 at 1:02 pm

    Maria, I think you are an incredibly brave, smart, wonderful woman. I wish you all the best and hope the treatment for your depression is helping you to feel better.

    Your blog has been so helpful to me as I’ve been working through a necrotic right nipple-areola complex following breast reduction surgery last month. I’m very fortunate that my plastic surgeon is very involved with my healing progress. I know it could be much worse than it is, but still, sometimes I really want to cry about it. Your site has given me the reassurance that even in very bad cases of necrosis, a great outcome can be had. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing what you went through; you truly have helped me and many others!

    Warmest wishes,



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